Monday, May 14, 2012

Of Spring Flings, Sidebars & Social Networking

SITS Girls Spring Fling Event:
A Blog Improvement Challenge--
Build Your Community &
Improve Your Blog
While working so hard to finish Mom's scarf/shawl before Moother's Day I dropped the ball on SITS Girls Spring Fling for Thursday and Friday assignments.  So my goal today was to catch up those two assignments and do today's which was to declutter our blog.  Thursday was share your Google+ link and Friday was share your Pinterest link.  Though I had a Google+ page I hadn't done a profile for it.  I didn't have a Pinterest account at all.

Earlier last week we shared our facebook and Twitter links.  Those I already had well establishes so those two assignments took only minutes.  Except for the visiting others part.  That always takes me a looooooong time.

But today I spent hours on Google+ and Pinterest.  Signing up for the latter and setting up profiles on both and following and pinning and liking and...


I was so bummed that both JoyRenee and Joystory and Joywrite were already taken as usernames.  I probably spent half an hour just staring at the sighup screen before I finally went with 'storyismyjoy'


Might as well round them all up here:

Joy Renee on Google+
Joy Renee on Pinterest
Joystory fanpage on facebook
Joy Renee on Twitter


For the declutter project I chose to begin with getting rid of all of the old buttons for events and challenges from the past.  But I didn't want to just delete them.  So I moved them into a footer at the bottom of the page in a section I named Once Upon a Time.  That was so easy I wondered if maybe I was about to loose my aversion to sidebar fiddling caused by a frustrating experience every single time I attempt it.

But then of course it happened again.  One of the buttons I wanted to leave in the sidebar above did not reappear after I'd removed the others and saved the widget.  I spent nearly two hours beating my brain over the problem.  If it had been any other button but Dewey's 24 Hour Read-a-Thon I might have given up and deleted it after fifteen minutes.  It wasn't until I did a character by character comparison of the code in the sidebar widget with the code in my last read-a-thon post that I discovered that somehow the url for the image had lost all its capitalization.  Once I'd copied the url again from the post and inserted it in place of the deformed one it worked again.  Now, tho, I'm left confuzzled as to how it happened.  All of the letters were still in place but had converted to lowercase.

So altogether today I must have put in seven hours on the Spring Flling.  Including a few comments left and reading some of the posts on SITS Girls about Google+ and Pinterest.  Some of that time in the last three hours has been about waiting for pages to load and tabs to unfreeze. It must be time for a browser restart or computer restart.  Or both.

My mind feels like a pretzel.

If tomorrow's assignment looks like it will take me more than thirty minutes I might have to pass so I can focus on getting caught up on a crochet project that has to be done a week from today.


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Sunday, May 13, 2012

Sunday Serenity #285 Mother's Day Blessings


This was the state of Mom's scarf/shawl when I had to give it to her today and then take it away. It might be a bit over half done. I have 21 of the long rows. I'm aiming for 33.

I've been awake since before noon on Saturday because I kept crocheting so long this morning I lost my chance to get more than a nap before it would be time to fix lunch for Mom so I elected to keep on crocheting until time to fix lunch.

But then my brother surprised us by calling from Portland to say he was bringing his kids [only the youngest is technically still a kid] and Jamie up to take us all out for dinner.  And we all decided to save our appetites for that and just nibbled a bit on our own instead of me making lunch.

So I was off the hook for making lunch and dinner which was a huge blessing.  Considering how yesterday when well rested I manged to knock the cutting board off the sink rim onto my bare toes.

I showed Mom the scarf/shawl at the restaurant after she had looked at the Family Mother's Day card.  She asked me if I was making a 'fascinator'.  A word I'd never heard but she said it was like a scarf but bigger and could cover your hair and wrap around your neck.  She said they were popular when she was in high-school

So maybe that is what I'm making.  A fascinator.  [not sure of tha spelling

Well I have been nodding off over this from the moment I started prepping the pictures.  I better surrender to it.
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Saturday, May 12, 2012

1st ROW80 Check-In


A Round of Words in 80 Days

I declared my intent to do this in Friday's post and tomorrow is already the first check-in

Since I've identified the mess in my fiction files created by the 8 NaNos and 2 or three 70 Days of Sweat challenges as the worst stumbling block keeping me from working my fiction WIP and also since I'm jumping in at nearly the mid point of round 2 for 2012, I'm going to set my goals for between now and the end of June accordingly:

Choose 1 of the finished short stories to be the first epub to publish on Smashwords or Amazon and prep it for take off by the end of June: any revision, line edit, format, convert.  [Blow Me a Candy Kiss] -  Yes on choosing the title.


Spend 30 minutes or more per day reading a book on Writing from the ever growing TBR of books on writing.  Will compile list for future updates.
---Saturday - Y  
Read several chapters in Let's Get Digital: How to Self-Publish and Why You Should by David Gaughran.  I picked up the Kindle edition free on Amazon earlier this week.


Spend 30 minutes or more per day daydreaming in the story world with pencil and pad at hand.
---Saturday - Y



Spend 30 minutes or more per day on one or more of the following tasks:
--Saturday - Y



  • Input any material from the daydreaming session into it's appropriate file or task list.
  • Clean up the Fruit of the Spirit storyworld worksheet.
  • Clean up the 8 NaNo novel files: quarantine the mess, create work space for new writing, and create a system for  storing the material salvaged from the mess in such a way as it can be found when needed. i.e. linking it to appropriate topic pages in the FOS story world worksheet.
    ____Storyteller's Spouse 2006
    ____The Substance of Things Hoped For 2009
    ____Mobile Hopes 2008
    ____Spring Fever 2007
    ____A Trick of Light 2011
    ____Brooding Instinct 2005
    ____Everything That Rises Must Submerge 2010
    ____Majoring in Marine Biology 2004
  • Read and notate the scene text of the 8 NaNo novel files
    ____Storyteller's Spouse 2006
    ____The Substance of Things Hoped For 2009
    ____Mobile Hopes 2008
    ____Spring Fever 2007
    ____A Trick of Light 2011
    ____Brooding Instinct 2005
    ____Everything That Rises Must Submerge 2010
    ____Majoring in Marine Biology 2004
  • Create a master task list in FOS story world worksheet file and add any actionable task that comes to mind while working with the files: research and fact check, character development, scenes needed etc.  Future goals can be taken from this list.
  • Create topic pages in the FOS story world worksheet file for every character from every existing story and novel finished or in progress that is set in this story world.  Add any of the characters known life events to the master timeline.
  • Choose 10 POV level characters from FOS and write a first person rambling monologue for them.
  • Do a line edit of all of the completed short stories

    Blow Me a Candy Kiss
    How Does Your Garden Grow
    Running In Circles
    Of Cats and Claws and Curiosities
    Making Rag Doll Babies and Million Dollar Maybes
  • During the line edits consider whether any significant revision is still needed--scenes to add or delete, rearrange or rewrite; timeline issues, facts to confirm or to change--and create an actionable task topic in the file.
  • Write fresh scenes whenever a spark is lit by the above work.

I copy/pasted the goal list I created in Friday's post of intent and then added and adjusted and noted what got done.  I will do this for each check-in.  Watch the strike-throughs accumulate.

If I can create enough order by the end of May that I'm no longer feeling this strong aversion to opening my old NaNo files because I will have a system for dealing with the mess I make then I aim to participate in Camp NaNoWriMo in both June and August. Concurrently with the ROW80 challenges.

When I talk about my fiction files and worksheets I am talking about my WhizFolder Deluxe files.   As shown in one configuration in the screenshot below.



On the right is the tabbed browser with multiple files open.  Showing is the FOS worksheet file.  FOS is my Fruits of the Spirit storyworld in which every story I've begun except the fantasy trilogy ended up in.  I set up this worksheet file so I could coordinate timelines, character bios, research and anything else the individual stories might have in common.

A WhizFolder file is a hierarchical list of topics [left in the right window] that can be edited in place or opened in an advanced editor [window on the left].  A topic can be a chapter, a character bio, a piece of research, a task reminder--anything you can do in a RTF file you can do in a topic.  You can print them individually or in selected groups.  You can move them around inside the file, copy or move them to another file.  You can count words in selected topics or selected text.  You can hyperlink any topic to any other in any other WhizFolder file.  You can link web sites and applications and other file types. You can create keywords for ease of searching for topics in a file that contains too many to see at a glance.  You can embed objects like spread sheets, mind maps, images and documents.

But the primary things I use it for with writing projects is to keep the research and planning, timeline and rosters separate from the story text and to break the project down into manageable chunks that can be written in whatever order and then moved around if needed.  I prefer to break my stories down into scenes rather than chapters so I'll create a topic for each scene I know will be needed and if I discover another scene needs to be added between existing scenes it is a snap to create the topic for it and move it into place.  Sometime I might want to break a scene down into descriptive and dialog segments and then I might create separate topics for them as child topics for the scene and then once I'm ready to combine them I move the text into the scene topic.

If I was using it at its full potential as a file organizer it would serve just about every purpose Scrivener and Liquid Story Binder serve for writing projects.

When I talk about the messes I made of my Nano files it is because I didn't maintain the order.  Instead of stopping to create a new topic in its proper place in the list I would just hit enter a couple of times and start working on a different scene that may or may not have belonged after the scene I was just working on that may or may not have been finished.  I would switch from writing narrative or dialog to writing about a character or letting the character ramble.  As the NaNos went by I created fewer and fewer topics until this last one I did the whole thing in a single topic.  All 60K.  Everything I wanted to say about the story as well as the story itself is all jumbled together.  I might as well have been using Wordpad.

Another way of stating my main goal for this ROW80 is to create an environment in the files that entices me to open and work on them and a system that I can maintain even for NaNos.

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Friday, May 11, 2012

Friday Forays in Fiction: Writing Challenges


A Round of Words in 80 Days
What am I thinking?  I'm not even at home.  My time isn't even all my own to dispose of as I see fit.  I've got eight review copy reviews owed.  I've got half a dozen crocheted gifts with due dates before summer's end.  I've got and I've got and I've got...

So why am I thinking of joining another writing challenge?

And not just one!

Well as I discussed in my recent post To Rule or Not to Rule I have developed an aversion to my fiction files between NaNos for the last several years.  This is partly due to having made such a mess of them in the rush to get the word count.  And apparently partly due to not having some accountability.

I was just thinking the other day how much I miss Sven our 70 Days of Sweat Mascot.  I participated at least twice and planned to keep on participating but the site has not revived a challenge in over two years now.

Then lo but if I didn't stumble onto a challenge modeled on 70 Days.  It is called ROW80 or A Round of Words in 80 Days and is billed as a writing challenge that knows you have a life.

And it seems you can set your own goals and they can include things other than word count.  Things like editing existing manuscripts, outlining or plotting a new novel, amount of time devoted to writing each day.  Anything as long as it is measurable and conducive to establishing the habits necessary to being a writer.

And it runs four times a year beginning on the first Mondays of January, April, July and October.  With check-ins on the ROW80 blog every Sunday and Wednesday.

So since I've identified the mess in my fiction files created by the 8 NaNos and 2 or three 70 Days of Sweat challenges as the worst stumbling block keeping me from working my fiction WIP and also since I'm jumping in at nearly the mid point of round 2 for 2012, I'm going to set my goals for between now and the end of June accordingly:

Spend 30 minutes or more per day reading a book on Writing from the ever growing TBR of books on writing.  Will compile list for future updates.


Spend 30 minutes or more per day daydreaming in the story world with pencil and pad at hand


Spend 30 minutes or more per day on one or more of the following tasks:


  • Input any material from the daydreaming session into it's appropriate file or task list.
  • Clean up the 8 NaNo novel files: quarantine the mess, create work space for new writing, and create a system for  storing the material salvaged from the mess in such a way as it can be found when needed. i.e. linking it to appropriate topic pages in the FOS story world worksheet file
  • Read and notate the scene text of the 8 NaNo novel files
  • Create a master task list in FOS story world worksheet file and add any actionable task that comes to mind while working with the files: research and fact check, character development, scenes needed etc.  Future goals can be taken from this list.
  • Create topic pages in the FOS story world worksheet file for every character from every existing story and novel finished or in progress that is set in this story world.  Add any of the characters known life events to the master timeline.
  • Choose 10 POV level characters from FOS and write a first person rambling monologue for them.
  • Do a line edit of all of the completed short stories 
  • During the line edits consider whether any significant revision is still needed--scenes to add or delete, rearrange or rewrite; timeline issues, facts to confirm or to change--and create an actionable task topic in the file.
  • Write fresh scenes whenever a spark is lit by the above work.





Camp NaNoWriMmo 2012

And then on June 1st start making another mess

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Thursday, May 10, 2012

Thread Thirst


After dinner this evening my sister and I went to Michael's craft store and wandered for over an hour.  I spent $24 on what you see in the picture.  I ran out of the dark blue ribbon the last time I was dressing crocheted bookmarks so I grabbed that.

My Mexican variegated thread has been attached to my rainbow bag project for over a year and is getting low anyways.  The coral pink bamboo thread has been attached to the mini-diaper bag project I began in December.  The lime green thread is just something I've had my eye out for as two of my friends/family identify it as their favorite color.  I wish I could get it in size 10 but the size 3 will do for now.

The black yarn with blue metalic thread is something I've wanted for myself since I first saw it on the rack around Xmas.  I'm thinking of making a hat as I think I can do that with a single skein  I could also make a purse.  It isn't soft enough to suit me as a scarf.  But it wold be nice as one of those vests worn over blouses.  The fancy beads are for a project I'm making for a gift.

The four sheets of plastic canvas and the white cord for working them are for a project I've had in mind ever since I got my netbook.  I've had this concept for creating a case that binds together the external components to the netbook for ease of transport.  So that when I want it that way the DVD player can be attached and carried about the house or to the library as though it was a regular laptop.  This would eliminate the hassle of packing and unpacking cords.  The external storage drive will also fit as well as the mouse and possibly the power cord though I don't mind if the power cord stays separate as I don't intend for this to be a carrying case.  I'm not sure it will be sturdy enough for that anyway.  I've been using shoe box lids and rubber bands for the purpose since mid 2010 which was meant to be proof of concept not an ugly alternative.  The cardboard is wearing out so I need to rebuild the thing one way or another.

As promised yesterday here is Mom's scarf/shawl with the hand-painted silk lace-weight thread as it was about an hour ago:



It's about 4in wide if the mesh is partially stretched out but it naturally wants to bunch  I have 8 rows in.  I'm hoping for 14 or 16 inches wide which means 28 to 32 rows apparently.  In two days!!  Well it takes me about 45 minutes to do two rows.  That's 4 rows in 3 hours.  That means I'd need to put in 20 more hours by Sunday morning.  Ooops.  Not likely.

I have been trying to work on it only when I think Mom won't be aware of it--in the afternoon when she naps or at night when she sleeps or when I know she is busy in the living room and I'm in the bedroom where I can hear her distinctive shuffle in the hall in plenty of time to put it away.

I didn't work on it very long after posting last night as I got sleepy after only two rows.  Then this afternoon I spent quite a bit of time in the front of the house so I was working on a different project which also has a due date before the end of this visit.  Well I guess I better get busy again.  Let's see how many rows I can put in tonight.

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Wednesday, May 09, 2012

The SITS Girls Spring Fling Has Sprung

SITS Girls Spring Fling Event:
A Blog Improvement Challenge--
Build Your Community &
Improve Your Blog
I signed up for this a couple of weeks ago knowing that it was to start on the day I was leaving home.  I was actually able to get Monday's task [link your blog at SITS and leave comments on two others] done before I had to shut down my netbook and pack it for the trip but there was too much getting unpacked and organized at this end not to mention rested yesterday to get Tuesday's task done so this evening I caught up on Tuesday's [link your Twitter at SITS and follow two others and send some tweets] and after I get this posted I'll be doing Wednesday's task [link you blog's fb page at SITS and fan two participants pages]

It's not too late to join in.  It last through next week.  Here are the links for signing up and doing the first three tasks:




  • Sign Up: Get on our email distribution list for this event
  • Blog link-up: Share your blog URL and get commenting
  • Using Twitter to Build Your Community
  • Facebook Fans Page

  • Tomorrow will be about using Google+ and Friday about Pinterest.  The only one I'm not already signed up for is Pinterest.  But Google+ is sitting dead in the water since I signed up a couple months ago.  I don't really know how to use it.  Hoping for help from the tutorials at SITS tomorrow.  Same for Pinterest.

    I'll also be looking into the tutorials on Twitter, and fb available at the links above.

    As soon as I've done today's assignment I've got to get busy crocheting again.  Can you believe that I started a shawl for Mom for Mother's Day in the car on the trip up her Monday.  *shakes head*  *sighs* 

    Look for pics of what I have so far by tomorrow afternoon on tomorrow's post.  Right now it is about 60 inches long and 2 inches wide. It takes me just under an hour to do two rows. Four rows equals and inch and I'm aiming for somewhere between 10 and 18 inches. I'm working a simple rectangle the long way so that I can stop wherever I reach by the wee hours of Sunday morning.  If it ends up being a scarf instead of a shawl, so be it.  I'm using the hand painted silk lace weight thread that I made my MIL's shawl with last year and using the same love knot stitch aka Solomon's knot.  Tho I won't be changing up the stitch size as I did before.  I'm making the knots about a third of an inch long which makes the mesh just right to stick my thumb through.

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    Tuesday, May 08, 2012

    To Rule or Not to Rule

    I own this book, Rules for Writers 5th edition by Diana Hacker.I bought it when I was helping my sister-in-law with editing her college compositions over five years ago.  It is my primary reference book for editing issues.  When I bother to use it.  Which I haven't much for some years except to look up something for a friend or family member who has asked me a grammar, punctuation or usage question.

    I don't know how I became the go-to-girl for questions of that sort.  I guess because it was no secret that I was always writing.  And that I'd taken college composition courses.

    This is not a review.  It is something else which I'm unsure how to name.  A musing maybe.

    I brought Rules with me on several of my visits to Mom's over the last few years and often didn't even use it but last time I left it behind because it was still packed in the boxes from our move in the days just before my trip and wouldn't you know but that I needed it more than once before I got home three months later.

    Then sometime last month when I was finally unpacking all my books onto the shelves in my new office I spent several moments thumbing through Rules before putting it on the shelf on my desk along side my Rodale's Synonym  Finder.  There was this niggling voice in my head sounding like it was coming from several rooms away.  "It is time."  And I knew exactly what it meant.

    See, some years ago, and it's actually close to two decades ago, I consciously and with purpose set aside all my rule books and gave myself permission or rather commission to write without rules until I subdued the perfectionist demons that choked word flow and prevented so many of my WIP from proceeding beyond a few pages or a few chapters because they constantly insisted I edit or rewrite previously written sections and even as I was writing.

    It wasn't until I acquired my first computer in 1987 that I was even able to contemplate such a thing.  But after several years with backspace keys and cut/paste I had already noticed a freer flowing of the words and wondered what would happen if I took the brakes off completely.  So in 1996 I did.  For my personal journal on the computer.  My daily word count ballooned from one or two hundred per day to one to five thousand per day.

    Of course much of it was garbage.  But garbage with gems in it that I could pull out and polish for poems, stories, essays and eventually blog posts.  If you were to go into my archives for my first year or two of blogging you would find that my no rules rule held sway even then.  It wasn't until I got my first, unsolicited, review copy in 2006 that I started employing my inner editor more often.

    But because I had stifled my inner editor for so long the rules did not immediately come to mind.  I would sense there was a problem with a sentence but couldn't name it so couldn't fix it.  My usual recourse was to delete the sentence entirely and if the information was necessary rewrite it in simple phrases that I could be sure were correct.  This often resulted in the loss of my unique voice though.

    Another issue that cropped up was that I could whip our the rough draft of a post in under thirty minutes but then spend three hours rewriting and editing it.  I've know for some time that the solution is to get refamiliarized with the rules again.  But I still fear the power of those perfectionist demons I've always called my harpies.  If I give the rules too much power will I return to the days of a zero to 300 polished but uptight words?  How do I prevent that?

    On the other hand, how do I face those hundreds of thousands of words of mess created during the last eight NaNoWriMos?  For the last three years now I've had trouble returning to my fiction files in the months between Novembers because the mess is so overwhelming.

    Obviously I've already lost the original value of loosing the rules if I'm no longer producing words of fiction regularly because the existence of what is already produced and its state of chaos is now what is clogging my word flow. The faint voice telling me "It is time."  is acknowledging that I can't go on as is either.  Not if I want to put my material in publishable form.  And my plan to go the self-publish route means that I need to learn how to be both writer of free flowing first draft and re-writer, reviser and line editor.  And I need to be the first without loosing the last three and the last three without loosing the first.

    So when I unpacked this book again today as I set up my workstation next to my side of the bed in Mom's room I decided I was going to start tackling the problem.  Somehow.  Still not sure exactly how.

    I'll begin by reading and browsing in the book.  And on it's companion website.  Toe tips in the water.

    The hope is that having encountered a rule or three in the book I will be alert to the issues it relates to as they crop up in my writing making it easier to avoid them or fix them.

    Also I am going to start entering those fiction files to look around with an eye to putting some order to the chaos while at the same time preserving the free flow environment.  That is the key, I think.  Two separate working environments.  Virtual environments that is.  I shouldn't be revising or editing in the same file maybe even with the same ap as the one I free write in.  That might make it easier to switch writer/editor caps.  Playing two different kinds of music as or just prior to working might help as well.

    Hmm, I know what music helps the words flow and enhances creativity.  I wonder what music might assist an editor in finding the right frame of mind.  Any suggestions?

    At any rate, as I do this I'll keep an eye out for subjects that might make a good post thus making the mechanics of writing, revising, and editing a regular feature on Joystory.

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    Monday, May 07, 2012

    Are We There Yet?

    Are we there yet?
    2 cheezeburger.com
    You know?  I'm not sure yet.  Still feeling the vibration in my bones and glutimas maximas.  The sound of the traffic going by outside is not much different.  My ears feel full of jello from the sudden changes in altitude.

    But we arrived in Longview about 8:30 so I'm told.

    I got here in time to visit with Mom for nearly an hour standing beside her bed.  She said she had just gotten settled and not been asleep yet.

    Then my sister and I visited for hours.  Until 11:30.

    My netbook is on battery as there are no grounded plugs in the living room and I don't want to disturb Mom by rooting around beside the bed for the plug I usually use while here.  Wish I'd thought of that while we were visiting and got it set up then before she went to sleep.

    Well, I've been awake since 6 something this morning and on the go from the get go.  So it is time to stop going.  I'd like to crawl into bed with the netbook and read an ebook until either the netbook's or my batteries give out.  I've already used 50% of the netbook battery checking email and fb and tracking down that LOLcat pic I remembered seeing once.  That leaves me at the most a little over an hour.  Should be plenty of time. I just need a chance to relax and let my mind and body go to that place it goes when it lets go.

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    Sunday, May 06, 2012

    Sunday Serenity #282




    The mood of this music is a fair representation of my own mood today.  A bittersweet joy overlaying sadness. 

    The joy is for the visit to spend time with my mom and sisters again.  The sadness is for the leaving home again so soon.

    This mood has gripped me all week and my response to it has been to ignore it as much as possible and also to ignore the packing tasks as much as possible.  So now I'm going to be leaving in a bit over 24 hours and I haven't started packing my writing, reading, electronics and crochet that are going with.  I just last week got the last of the bags and boxes from the move and the last trip unpacked and everything stowed in approximate proximity to where they will live in this room.  And now I have to mess it all up again.

    The packing itself is not the problem.  Its the selection.  The decision making efforts about what goes and what stays.  The priority setting and the letting go of what needs to stay.

    I've already got my clothes and HABA (Health & Beauty Aids) packed at least.  I got that done Friday and was supposed to do the crafts yesterday and the reading/writing today and the electronics at the last minute.

    Instead of laying down before dawn as I try to do this morning I stayed up thinking it would be better to skip sleep this morning rather than tonight and then arrive in Longview Monday night running on 30 to 40 hours without sleep.

    But I'm not making good use of this time.  I'm frittering it away in busy work and compulsive checking of email and social networks and stats and fiddling with my ebook library and staring at the wall and gazing about the room at all of the shelves and drawers and bags and boxes containing items I may or may not be taking with me. And still strongly resisting beginning to pull them out of their places of repose and make piles on the floor, the mini-tramp, the desk and wherever else I can find space.

    As it turns out though this is not a good time of the day for me to be moving about in this room or doing much else unless maybe it involves sitting with my back to the window and using its light to read or crochet.  Because this is the time of day that the sun is on this end of the house and the window is one big bright light that blinds me to the entire rest of the room and puts a glare on my screen.

    And I've started yawning.

    I've either got to go get coffee and then start dragging stuff out to the living room to sort and pack.

    Or go to bed and start the project this evening.

    With this post going up now I've got the choice since either way this evening is free of that task and thus available for the packing or an early bedtime.  Because IF I stay up now I should be in bed by midnight so I can get 10 to 12 hours of sleep before my sister gets here tomorrow noonish.

















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    Saturday, May 05, 2012

    This Mobius Strip of Ifs by Mathias B. Freese [ My Reading Journal -1]

    This Mobius Strip of Ifs
    by Mathias B. Freese
    This Mobius Strip of Ifs
    by Mathias B. Freese
    168 p
    Pub. Wheatmark
    Essays

    I can't call this a proper review since I've not finished this book yet but I don't want to keep the author waiting any longer for the exposure on my blog my review copy has earned him.  So this is the first of two or more rambling musings on the book as my perusal progresses.

    Don't you just love this cover?  I know, I know.  Don't judge a book by its cover and all that.  But I do have to admit as any honest person would that sometimes whether or not we pick up a book off the shelf at the library, bookstore or even at home or click on the title for more details on the Internet bookstores depends on the cover attracting the attention of our eyes which dearly love their eye candy.

    I'm not shallow enough to judge the content of a book by its cover but for books I've little to no prior knowledge of either title or author I am more likely to reach for it to find out more if the cover is either pleasing to the eye or intriguing to the mind.  And this cover is both.

    Add to that the intriguing nature of the title.  The Mobius strip, that endless loop curving back on itself on which a walker would pass every landmark twice before crossing the starting line again.  And 'ifs' that word that conjures up an endlessly bifurcating path or flowchart.  We learn in the first essay "To Ms. Foley, with Gratitude" Mr. Freese is referring to life itself by his title.  Now that would have been the final tug drawing me in if I'd casually picked this up off the library shelf.  I would have checked it out if only to find out more about this man who can create such a visually vivid and playfully pertinent metaphor.

    What I've learned so far after 15 essays in 58 pages is that Mr Freese has the heart of a poet, the sense of humor of a stand-up-comedian, the take-no-prisoners, suffer-no-fools fierceness of an editorialist and the incisive mind of a philosopher.  I learned that he is a trained psychoanalytic therapist and that before he was a therapist he was a teacher and over the years he has had short stories and essays published in a variety of venues and has self-published an award winning novel about the Holocaust.

    I've learned that he self-identifies as an atheist on a spiritual enlightenment quest, that one of his stories was once published in a 'best of' anthology but mistakenly attributed to another author, that he's lost a mother, a wife and a daughter to untimely deaths, that he has an obsession with exploring the meaning of the Holocaust, another obsession with deconditioning himself from as many of the conditionings imposed by parents and culture as possible before he dies and feels at 70 something that he still has a ways to go on that front.

    Why do I dwell so much on the author?  Am I now making an equally egregious error as judging a book by its cover by judging it by its author?  Maybe a case could be made for that if this had been a novel or a collection of short stories as was the last book I reviewed for Mr. Freese.  And if you check my review for his short story collection I don't think you'd find that I dwelled on the author much at all.  But this is a collection of essays that , so far anyway, contain a great deal of personal information and self-reflection so talking about the author is talking about the content.

    How is it that I've spent over a month with this book and only made it through 58 pages?  Well partly it is due to having come home at the first of April from my three months stay at my mom's to find a stack of eight review copies waiting for me.  These in addition to three ebooks and two more books I knew were in the mail.  Some of these had hard and fast dates set for their reviews and some, like this one, had been sent before mid February so the clock was ticking on getting them read and reviewed even though when is still flexible.  Add to that the necessity of unpacking from the trip as well as finishing the unpacking from our December move.  And REST!!  Recovering from the stress of the previous four months--five if you count NaNoWriMo in November.

    But all of that would have been no obstacle if this had been a 164 page novella. After all, in the month of March I'd read 8 full novels, among them Haruki Murikami's 1Q84, the entire Hunger Games Trilogy, Written in the Ashes by K. Hollan Van Zandt and House Rules by Jodi Picoult, and Weird Sisters by Eleanor Brown--well that last one I didn't quite finish before I left Mom's and it took me into the second week of April to get through the last fifty pages.  3-4000 pages of fiction.  All on ebook.

    The fact that they were ebooks that I could control font and line size with contributed some to that accomplishment but doesn't really explain why I couldn't get through 164 pages of essays in a month when I could race through 3000+ pages of fiction in a similar space of time.


    It is because I don't read all books in the same way.  I read fiction quite differently than non-fiction.  I read different kinds of fiction differently--I would never race through Tolstoy's War and Peace the same way I raced through the Hunger Games Trilogy. I don't read short stories the same way as novels.  I don't read poetry the same way as any of the others.  Although I can say that the way I read short stories and essays is more like the way I read poems than the way I read novels or treatises, memoirs or history etc.

    This is what reading short stories, essays and poems has in common for me:  I do my best to read them in one sitting.  Then I read them a second time--either immediately or after a break of minutes, hours or days--while the first reading is still quite fresh.  Then I move on to something else entirely--answer an email, load the dishwasher, crochet a few rows--before moving on to the next story, poem or essay.  That is because these forms of writing are designed to be held in the mind as a whole thing much like sitting and gazing upon a painting.  The second reading is to ensure that I encounter the beginning and middle with the ending in mind so that the author's intent can be fully appreciated.  And then I sit with it or sleep on it.  Thus I seldom read more than one or two of them in a single day.  Though I might go through this with up to five poems that are under one page long.

    That is why it has taken me over a month to read 15 short essays.

    Following is a list of the essays in this book that I've read so far.  I was going to go down the list and add a line or two about each one but I think this post is far too long already so I'll save that for my next Reading Journal entry on this title.  Which I hope to be sometime late next week after I'm settled once again at my mom's.  I'm leaving again in under 40 hours for another 5-6 weeks there helping my sister out and have much preparations left to do.

    To Ms. Foley, with Gratitude
    At 67
    Untidy Lives, I say to Myself
    Teachers have No Chance to Give Their Best
    The Unheard Scream
    Introductory Remarks on Retirement from a Therapist
    Jefferson
    Freud's Cheerful Pessimism
    Therapist as Artist: A Short Talk to the Stony Brook Psychology Society
    Ten Cannon
    Fifteen Thousand Hours
    Personal Posturings: Yahoos as Bloggers
    An Artist is Never Poor
    In First-Person
    On Reading Christopher Hitchen's God Is Not Great


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    Friday, May 04, 2012

    Friday Forays in Fiction: Joining a Read-a-Long

    Join the Read-a-Long for
    The Secret Garden
    by Frances Hodgson Burnett
    I've been on a nostalgia kick for favorite fiction from my childhood as well as fiction I encountered or heard about but never got around to reading.  I've been hunting down ebooks of as many of the public domain ones I can find and just recently downloaded seven novels by Frances Hodgson Burnett.

    When I saw Sheila's announcement at Book Journey for the May Read-a-Long for The Secret Garden, I thought to myself What better way to ensure that I actually read one or more of these than to join a read-a-long.

    The Secret Garden will be a re-read for me.  The other six titles I downloaded form Guttenberg are not.  Most anyway.  I may have read The Lost Prince and/or A Little Princess but there were so many titles of children's books with the words Prince or Princess in them that I can't be sure I'm remembering the right ones.  Plus the titles are familiar to me from my game of Authors which include among its for titles for Frances Hodgson Burnett, the three I've just listed plus Little Lord Fauntleroy.

    Authors was a card game a bit like Go Fish but you were going after sets of four titles by a number of authors.  My game was all children's titles but I believe there was an adult version too.  I've often wished I still had my little deck of author cards.

    I once set out to read every title represented in the deck but I never completed that mission.  It seems like there were 24 titles.  For some reason that number popped into my head as I was thinking about it.  Which would mean there were 6 authors.  I'm remembering Frances Hodgson Burnett, Mark Twain, Charles Dickens, Louisa May Alcott,  & Robert Louis Stevenson.  But I'm drawing a blank on a sixth so maybe there wasn't.

    Does anyone else remember having that game?

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    Thursday, May 03, 2012

    Written in the Ashes by K. Hollan Van Zandt: A Book Review

    Written in the Ashes
    by K. Hollan Van Zandt
    448 pages
    Publisher: Balboa Press- July, 2011
    Historical Fiction.

    When I heard that this novel was set in the time of the Alexandrian Library in Egypt I could not sign onto this blog tour fast enough.  Such high expectations are often a set up for disappointment but not this time.  This story surpassed my expectations.

    For a first novel it is amazingly competent on every level of craft: pacing, dialog, plot, character, description, narrative, setting, theme, symbol, metaphor, historical veracity.  I could not find fault with any of it.  If I had not been told this was a first novel I could not have guessed.

    The reason I was so excited about the setting of  Written in the Ashes was because of my interest going back to my teens in the history, myth and cultures around the Mediterranean, in Church history, in libraries in general but especially the library at Alexandria, Egypt that was burned in the 5th century B.C.E. an event I'd learned of in a novel in my early teens which had induced a grief in me on a par with the loss of a loved one.

    One of the characters in Written in the Ashes is the historical Hypatia the woman who was the last head librarian of the Alexandrian library who had lived in the library from childhood and succeeded her father in the position..  I had first learned of her in my early teens as well, probably in that same novel I mentioned above, and her story haunted me.  I wanted to be her.  I wished that I lived in a library like her.  I still do.

    The scenes of the burning of the library broke my heart all over again.

    The story centers on young Hannah a Jewish shepardess who was kidnapped from her father's nomadic camp by slave traders who raped her mercilessly before selling her in Alexandria.  Her master, one Alizar the alchemist, was a kind and perspicacious gentleman who recognized her potential right away and set her on a path towards purchasing her freedom.  Education was the first step and for that he sent her to study at the Alexandrian library.

    This library was nothing like the Public Libraries most of us are familiar with.  It was more like today's universities combined with museums, botanical gardens and zoos.  Its mission was to gather and preserve knowledge from all corners of the known world which at that time was expanding as merchant caravans and trading ships ventured further and further in all directions from the Mediterranean bringing back representative materials from their travels of flora, fauna, art, literature, science, math, maps and more.  Alexandria as a port town at the mouth of the Nile river was in a prime location for such a mission.

    But there were those who feared the accumulation and availability of such things.  Especially the Catholic Church which at that time was consolidating its political power in the region and defining a definitive doctrine that they wished to impose on all and to that end were intent on eliminating pagan knowledge and practice as well as Christian 'heresies', the Jewish traditions and in some cases populations, and all the literature, science and art that countered the teachings of the Church.

    In the novel this perspective was represented by Bishop Cyril who instituted the death penalty for pagan practices, exiled the Jewish population from the town, and was putting pressure on the library to turn over certain items for either destruction or 'safe-keeping' by the church.  Of course Hypatia resisted this and of course this infuriated Cyril who stirred up fear and resentment in the populous by accusing her of paganism and witchcraft setting the stage for a trial or lynching once he could accost her outside the well fortified walls of the library.

    There is also a love story threaded through  Written in the Ashes.  Two actually as Hannah is torn between two men.  One a sailor and the other a warrior/priest.

    The ending though it wrapped up many of the story's threads satisfyingly left a few of them for a sequel.  I understand this is to be a trilogy and I can't wait to read the next one.

    I'm also anxiously awaiting the TV miniseries that is in the works.

    Note:  I received and ecopy of this book in exchange for a fair and honest reaction on this blog and participation in this virtual tour. 

    The following material is from the press release:

    Who burned the Great Library of Alexandria?


    When the Roman Empire collapses in the 5th century, the city of Alexandria, Egypt is plagued with unrest. Paganism is declared punishable by death and the populace splinters in religious upheaval.

    Hannah, a beautiful Jewish shepherd girl is abducted from her home in the mountains of Sinai and sold as a slave in Alexandria to Alizar, an alchemist and successful vintner. Her rapturous singing voice destines her to become the most celebrated bard in the Great Library.

    Meanwhile, the city’s bishop, Cyril, rises in power as his priests roam the streets persecuting the pagans. But while most citizens submit, a small resistance fights for justice.

    Hypatia, the library’s charismatic headmistress, summons her allies to protect the world’s knowledge from the escalating violence. Risking his life, his family, and his hard-earned fortune, Alizar leads the conspiracy by secretly copying the library’s treasured manuscripts and smuggling them to safety.

    When Hannah becomes the bishop’s target, she is sequestered across the harbor in the Temple of Isis. But an ancient ceremonial rite between a monk and priestess inside the Pharos lighthouse ignites a forbidden passion.

    Torn between the men she loves, Hannah must undertake a quest to the lost oracles of Delfi and Amun-Ra to find the one thing powerful enough to protect the pagans: The Emerald Tablet.

    Meanwhile, the Christians siege the city, exile the Jews, and fight the dwindling pagan resistance as the Great Library crumbles.
    But not everything is lost. . 




    What They're Saying:


    “A stunning epic about the burning of the Great Library of Alexandria, Egypt from a brilliant young novelist whose depiction of the ancient world is sure to capture the hearts and readers everywhere.”- Mark R. Harris, Academy Award-Winning Producer (Crash, Gods & Monsters)

    “Written in the Ashes is one of those rare novels that sets ‘history’ afire, to bathe readers in the glow of a greater, hotter truth. Fans of The Mists of Avalon will find this romantic/alchemical/feminist/spiritual epic equally captivating.” – Tom Robbins, international/ New York Times bestselling author Even Cowgirls Get the Blues and Jitterbug Perfume

    “Van Zandt’s vivid description of the Great Library instantly transported me to a lush fifth century Alexandria. Her lyrical writing style and breakneck storytelling kept me riveted to the very last page.”-Robin Maxwell bestselling author of The Secret Diary of Anne Boleyn and Signora da Vinci.

    “In her captivating debut novel, Written in the Ashes, K. Hollan Van Zandt brings to life a fascinating and forgotten woman of history: Hypatia of Alexandria, who may have been one of the greatest female minds of all time. If you’ve ever wondered what it was like to walk the streets of long ago Egypt, then look no further. You will be enthralled!”-Michelle Moran, international bestselling author of Nefertiti and Cleopatra’s Daughter

    “Written in the Ashes is a story that could have been ripped from today’s headlines. It opens the door into a magical, fascinating and frightening era in our history. With hope, it’s one we will not be doomed to repeat.”-Josh Conviser, Executive Consultant HBO’s Rome, author Echelon and Empyre

    “This book has been optioned for a TV mini-series by Academy Award-winning producer Mark Harris (Crash 2005). I cannot wait to see this beautiful story on my TV. Once I started this book I worked my way through it in 2 days. And when I say work, I mean it was a perfect read. It is clear that a lot of research has gone into this book, which is perhaps most beautifully expressed in the description of the Library of Alexandria. Next to a beautiful story, the book also shows respect for the time in which the story is set. As a historical fiction novel it is one of the best I have read in a long time. Kaia has truly achieved creating a story that is both captivating and interesting. With beautiful attention to detail and tradition, it is bound to ensnare every reader.”-Juli, UniverseinWords.Blogspot.com

    “The story is extremely detailed in historical fact, but by no means is it dry and dusty. The author manages to weave the facts seamlessly into the exciting and romantic fictional story. So much so, that it becomes difficult to separate the two while reading – it just sucks you right into 5th Century Alexandria. I found myself absolutely riveted while reading this book! I highly recommend this book for anyone that appreciates a strong female character or two.” Theresa Jones, frugexperments.com]

    Note: Written in the Ashes has been snatched up by Academy Award-winning producer Mark Harris (Gods & Monsters)) of Agape Media Productions. (He won best picture for "Crash" in 2005).  He plans to create a TV mini series with it.  For those who may be offended easily, you should know that there is some rape, violence, sex, and a bit of profanity.  If it were a movie it would be rated R.



    K. Hollan Van Zandt has always loved libraries, oceans, ancient history and migrating birds. Her mentor, novelist Tom Robbins, instilled in her an abiding love and respect for language.She lives in Southern California, and dreams of a home in Greece. This, her first novel, took ten years to complete.

    From her website:
    I am a Scorpio born in the year of the Rabbit in California. (Though American by birth, I am convinced my soul is Greek.) I am a nature lover, deep ecologist, and a devoted yogi who holds 7 yoga certifications. My writing mentor is best-selling novelist Tom Robbins, author of Jitterbug Perfume, Even Cowgirls Get the Blues, and Another Roadside Attraction. You probably know his quote, “It’s never too late to have a happy childhood.”

    Visit her web page

    Join her group on goodreads to ask her any questions you have about Written in the Ashes and the Great Library of Alexandria.


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    Brittany Book Nook Club                       May 11      G
    Angela Royal Reviews                          May 14       None
    Christine Reflections of a Book Addict  May 15       G & GP May 16
    Rebecca A Words Worth                      May 17       None
    Audra Unabridged Chick                      May 18       G
    Ruth My Devotional Thoughts              May 21       G & GP May 22
    Dana Let's Book It                                May 23       None
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    Farrah Book Faery Reviews                May 25       None
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    Shellie Layers of Thought                   May 31       None


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    Wednesday, May 02, 2012

    Let There Be Light

    We finally got the mogul based bulb for this vintage 1950s floor lamp that I brought back from Longview last month.  I love this lamp.  It has been in my life from the beginning.  It stands sentinel over my earliest memories of home.

    It continued to be the main lighting for the living room of my childhood homes beyond the day I left home.  I'm not sure when it got banished to the basement.  Maybe at first it was meant to be part of the decor of the rec room but at some point the rec room became a storage room and then one end of it became my nephews bedroom in 2004.

    At any rate a few years ago--I think it was when I was starting the family photo scan and was down rummaging in the stuff at the end of the room that remains a storage area--I noticed the lamp standing in a corner without bulb, shade or diffusing bowl.  It saddened me.

    Then when we moved into our new place in December and noted that there were no ceiling fixtures in the living room or bedrooms my first thought for lighting the living room was this lamp.  So I asked for it.  I accommodates a 3-way bulb and all through my childhood the bulbs we used went from 40 or 60 watt up to 100 or 150.  The bulb Ed picked up starts at 100 and ends at 300.  Not exactly energy saving.  :(

    But Man oh Man does it give light!  And for me, because of the RP, Light Rules!

    Eventually of course I wold like to put an energy saver bulb in it but it means getting an adapter thingy to screw into the mogul base to accept the standard base of regular bulbs.  I'm not sure why Ed didn't go that route this time.  Either he gave up trying to find one or he didn't like the price.  But for now I'm just going to revel in the light.

    Having this lamp for the living room now meant I could move the table lamp we were using in there into the bedroom.  It was one of the matching pair I brought back from Longview last month that had belonged to a friend of my mom's who passed.  Eventually I want both of them in the bedroom but one is lighting my office until I can replace it, with a good full spectrum floor lamp that I can move from reading station to writing station to crafting station in here.

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    Tuesday, May 01, 2012

    Vasculitus Awareness Month 2012

    In honor of this being the first day of May and the month designated as Vasculitus Awareness Month, I'm going to turn this post over to my sister Jamie for a guest post on her experience of living with one of the Vasculitus diseases.

    Those of you who follow my blog might remember the month long vigil we held in her ICU room in the summer of 2010 when we almost lost her.  Or you can go here and here to read about it.

    Vasculitis diseases are autoimmune disorders and they come in many flavors. Jamie was finally diagnosed with the flavor Wegener's which causes inflammation of blood vessels in the nose and throat and organs and causes inflammation in the joints which is quite painful.  She has developed scar tissue in her throat that necessitates dilation surgeries every 3 to 6 months.  Last year during one of those surgeries the doctors had to install a long term trach.

    With that intro I now turn you over to Jamie but stay tuned at the end for an informative video about Vasulitus.


     I have always been relatively healthy, breathing, running, jumping, walking the three miles around lake Sacajawea in my home town of Longview, Washington. walking a mile to school and back daily.  But in the winter of 2008 that all changed for me. I woke up in pain, my knees hurt to where I couldn’t walk to the bathroom, so I called an ambulance and then called my brother.

    Then getting the dreaded cortisone shot in my knee and then my breathing problem began. Everyone thought it was asthma, who would have thought I would be here and have a disease so rare? GPA (Wegener’s)!  That started me on a journey to discovering what strength, endurance; courage truly looks like when faced with a battle.  Especially when it is your own life you are saving.

    I have experience thus far in a 3 year period, numerous surgeries, 2 near death experiences, loving support from family and friends from whom I never would have thought I would receive it, learning to communicate effectively with doctors, nurses, family, and friends in order to be heard, not having a voice to speak in order to get what I needed, having a care provider come in 5 days a week to help me to maintain my house, losing a friendship, gaining an old friend I thought I had lost, meeting new and amazing friends who too have Vasculitis disease, losing my ability to drive myself, gaining a furry friend who loves me unconditionally no matter what I look like, sound like, or what mood I am in. 

     And most importantly I have learned that I am stronger and can face obstacles with fear, but still can be calm and get through it anyway. 

    I am not some woman that does not feel the tinges of anxiety or nervousness when faced with challenges. I do feel that way; I am just choosing to courageously face the challenges anyway. An example of this is focusing on what I can do and not what I cannot do. When I get news such as having to face yet another surgery and knowing my history of how those surgeries can end up causing more damage in the long run than good, I start looking at the reason I need another throat dilation surgery done: in order for me to breathe. 

    Breathing seems like a vital thing to me and even though I have a history of throat spasms during surgery I will face it anyway. I just learned to do some things ahead of time in preparation. Having an illness teaches me to prepare for all sorts of things. One preparation thing I have done is an advance directive in case I am not able to make health care choices or any type of decisions. My siblings have copies of this paperwork and that makes me feel secured. 

    The weeks preceding surgery I do not read any horror books or watch horror movies so that in case I have another hallucination episode again I will not hallucinate something bad again like I did in July of 2010 when I read the Dean Koontz “Frankenstein” series before having throat surgery. I ended up having major hallucination around that book. I recommend no one reads or watches things that are scary before going under anesthesia. 

    Putting my life in perspective these last three years I have been living with chronic illness, I've learned the value of acceptance: Having to accept that I am sick that I no longer can do many of the things that I use to and realizing that some of those things I used to do were not exactly healthy in the first place. 

    I feel blessed that I am here, that I do now know what it is I suffer from. That there are support systems set in place from other suffers who are positive, who share what they are learning, and who are choosing to go on despite being in pain, having blisters on their bodies, brain issues, taking yucky drugs that cause lots of fall out issues more than the disease, and hearing their stories. 

    The people with Vasculities are in pain and have chosen to face the challenge and not lay in bed whining about how miserable they are. These men and women are fighting to be able to function and live fulfilled lives. I may not be 100 percent at my best all the time, but I am learning to love me anyway. I am appreciating what it is I do have. I am learning how to stand up, facing the challenge and even if I have one moment where I want to crawl under the rock. I now know that feeling will only last a day and then I am up fighting again. 

    I am worth fighting for and that is the biggest thing I have learned on my journey thus far.


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