NaNoWriMo Progress Report 2

well i finaly have word count as you can see in the side bar if i got it installed right.  almost 2300 words.  but it is a mess much like this post is going to be because i have been typing for hours and haven't slept and now must get ready to leave for my husband's grandma's house where i am staying until Thursday while my in-laws take their vacation over to the coast.. No internet so I won't be posting but maybe i will get more writing done now that i have made a breakthru.  it was when i realized that i had quite a bit of material in my notes that could qualify as narrative and dialog.  so what if it started and stopped in the middle of nowhere.  so what if it was mostly in third person when i intended to make this first person.  but i was tired of trying to find my POV charachter's voice and decided that i would leave that for later.  if it doesn't come on it's own by the time i have 50,000 words... well, i don't know.  but i won't worry about it anymore until then. or at least until the end of the month. i have a lengthy list of intended scenes and i started jumping around among them on a whim. so they start and stop in the middle of nowhere.  i also stopped worrying about punctuation.  especially quote marks and commas.  i also stopped pausing to find the 'right' word.  when i couldn't settle on one immediately i just listed all of the options that came to me.  like i said...it's a mess. but it is flowing now.  i hope i don't stiffle it again by expecting too much out of it.  i hate posting this mess but will as another exercise in subduing the harpy's that plague me.  perfection ain't all it's cracked up to be.  idolizing perfection is a crak-up waiting to happen.  or so i've often found.  there is a time and place.... NaNoWriMo is neither.  A blog post can be anything it's author so desires and right now I desire to post this more than i desire to perfect it.  i feel like celebrating and there is noone else to celebrate with.