Rebooting

I’ve still not caught up on my sleep. Not even almost. I was wrapping up my marathon session just before noon Tuesday morning when my husband unexpectedly returned form work. They gave him a short day as they anticipate needing him to work on Saturday. So it was another two hours before I got wound down and then I got less than four hours of sleep before I was called to dinner.

I was tempted to go back to bed after dinner but I took pity on my cats and took them outside on their leashes and sat with them in the back yard until the sun went down. My husband had to come help the three of us back into the house so I wouldn’t get tangled in their leashes or trip over the hose as I crossed the yard. Once we got them settled back in the stuffy bedroom we settled ourselves on the front porch to read for the next hour and then visit for an hour after that.

As he headed for bed at ten I moved my laptop and books etc out to the front room to get started on my session but I got sidetracked by a computer game and lost three hours to it. It has been a long, long time since I let that happen. Now I am just too weary to care about my session but I know that I will berate myself tomorrow and beyond if I let it slide completely. So I am preparing this post before I sign online and I’m intending to post it and tend to only whatever is urgent in my email and then sign off and go to bed. If I spend less than an hour online, I could be asleep by three and thus have a full fourteen hours of sleep before dinner Wednesday evening if I need it.

It is rare but sometimes I am able to slide into a deep sleep and stay there after I’ve become this sleep deprived. I am hoping that sleep is the only cure I need. I am feeling somewhat like my laptop with an overfull paging file--in need of a reboot. I am hoping that a long sleep will reset my perceptions too as, after catching up on a week’s worth of news and views while in this state of mind, I am so disgusted with the whole world I am wondering if the only cure for it is a reboot. Shades of the apocalyptic meme woven thru my psyche.