Feeling Eclipsed -- Sunday Serenity

 

Swallowed by Shadows or Floundering in Fire

My mood has been off all weekend and possibly since as early as Thursday evening.  But I noticed it sinking on Friday afternoon and it kept on sinking all of Saturday.  I don't feel it is still sinking but I don't feel much better either.  It didn't occur to me until late this afternoon that this might have something to do with the eclipse.

Everything has been a struggle like I'm wading in mud up to my chin.  I make silly mistakes.  I feel unmotivated.  I'm binging on junk TV.  I have to keep rereading sentence, paragraphs even pages.  I have to keep backing up the video because I spaced out or dozed off.  So I think a nap might help since I seem to be good for nothing else but once laying down I can't sleep.  Then at night I sleep only in fits, getting bounced out of the hypnogogic stage by startling images or sensations of falling or flying.  And when I do fall asleep long enough to dream I am soon waking from a nightmare.

I also have had a mild headache since I woke Saturday morning.  Along with mild nausea.

I searched for eclipse and mood or feelings and found this is actually a thing.  But I didn't have the focus to actually read the articles.  I read headlines and scanned section headings and looked at inserts with lists.

Here's hoping that the worst is over.  If the beginning for me was Thursday evening then that was about 36-40 hours before the eclipse passed over me in the Pacific Northwest just before 9am, then I should be back to feeling myself by the time I wake up.  Unless I still can't get a solid sleep but then the variable of sleep deprivation will be in the mix