Just Look At This Mess!
Standing in the doorway facing the long wall between the hall and the kitchen |
I chickened out spending the night. The mess was worse than I imagined and I have a good imagination with past experience to feed it.
Carri dropped me off about 4pm and came back with my dinner about 9pm and I still did not have a safe path between the bedrooms and the kitchen through the living room.
While I continued advancing along the long living room wall towards the kitchen, Carri started clearing the kitchen floor. She was about to leave just after 11 and said she really hated leaving me there with no way to ask for help. She caught me at a weak moment and I agreed.
I'd just been thinking how exhausted I was and how my back kept seizing up on me and how I still had to rearrange all the stuff I'd set up in the office to make room for a bed on the floor as neither the couch nor Ed's bed were safe places. Plus I would have had to sleep with all the lights on so I could find my way if I needed to get up in the night. Plus the toilet was gross. Plus the stench from the bathroom had been so bad all day I had to come out on the balcony to breath normal for a few minutes at least twice per hour.
It took me half an hour to gather the essentials--purse and puter bag and a couple USB lamps so I could find my way to my bed in Mom's room. Then we had to shut down all the lamps I'd set up in every room.
Mom is having her shower this morning so Carri won't be free to bring me back over until after Mom has had lunch. We are hoping to figure out the phone situation first too. If my nephew Levi can't figure out how to make Ed's phone load past the provider's logo screen, he will try to transfer its SIM card to my smartphone that has no SIM card. If Ed's service doesn't work in my phone I'm going to get a pay-as-you-go SIM card for mine.
My idea that I could be finished with this before the weekend is a fantasy. It is a good thing the landlord gave me access through the end of the month as I may need more than a week. Hope I can start spending the night soon though as I'm loosing at lot of time toward making a dent in the mess by having come home to sleep and then not be able to get back over before mid afternoon. If I can only work at it six hours a day it would take me well past the end of the month.
This whole ordeal is costing me more than emotional stress and time. It's costing me money. I've already spent the $IK I saved over the last year towards my own moving expenses as my spot on the waiting list for low income housing has been advancing for five years and that was their estimate at the time I signed on.
Standing on the edge of the living room carpet looking at the kitchen table. An island of sanity. Sorta. This was his cigarette making station. See he could be organized when it mattered to him. |
A slight turn right looking across the kitchen. |
The towel holder I crocheted for him last fall. |
The best reason of all for not spending the night even with a working phone. |
The scarves I crocheted for him. Still hanging on the closet door in the office where I hung them last fall. I spotted the poncho on the bottom of the mess on the couch at the end where I sat. |
Standing in the office door looking across the hall towards the far wall of the bedroom past the foot of the bed which is out of sight. |
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